Lyrics
[Intro]
(Yeah, yeah)
I’ve been haunted by these promises that wasn’t kept
And I’m afraid when it’s all over, I’ll be all that’s left
‘Cause everybody left
I’m tired of painting death
I’m tired of all the stress
Don’t recognize myself
[Verse 1]
And everybody need me, I don’t need no one else
They ask for everything from me, I’d never ask from them
I only try to help, it’s damaging my health
To try to play pretend and make amends, it’s living hell
But I get up again, I always seem to do
How could you give me all these dreams and they just not come true?
The picture that I painted changed and came to face the blue
Just know that everything I did, I did it all for You
And to my brother Jay, when we were on that stage
Felt like we could conquer everything, those were my favorite days
And then you told me that you had to go, I never got to say goodbye
I know that I could call your phone, but I can’t let you hear me cry
Maybe another time
[Chorus]
It’s sands in my heart for the homie
My mind can’t sleep when I’m lonely
I know that I gotta keep on going
Is this the price I pay, standing by the fire?
Should I give it all, ‘cause Jesus used my life?
Would He take the test that brought me trial and make it testify?
Me like Gideon, and in my weakness, He is glorified
[Verse 2]
I see my mother weep, I watched my father grind
I see my sister be strong, I saw my brother bind
I saw my pastor speak the vision, but the crowd was blind
I begged my dog to hold on, I like to think he tried
I saw my little brother try to be the best that he could
I saw my little sister walk and said that she never would
I saw my poppy love my granny as she’s losing her mind
I saw my wife shed tears and she should never have to cry
I promise I tried
[Chorus]
It’s sands in my heart for the homie
My mind can’t sleep when I’m lonely
I’m gon’ try, try to keep on going
Having the time, the time of my life
So I don’t wanna cry
Ooh, I’m having the time, the time of my life
So I don’t wanna cry
Jesus, I’m having the time, the time of my life
But I don’t wanna cry
Ooh, yeah, yeah, I’m having the time, the time of my life
But I don’t wanna cry
I’m having the time, the time of my life
So I try not to cry
Ooh, yeah, I’m having the time, the time of my life
So I try not to cry