Lyrics
[Verse 1]
Wake up tired before the day begins
Already fighting battles within
Smile on my face for everybody else
Meanwhile, my heart feels paper thin
Pressure sitting on my shoulders
Like the whole world need me
But when I need somebody back
Everything gets completely empty
Sometimes I stare at the ceiling for hours
Thinking how pain stole all my power
Still gotta work, still gotta function
Still gotta move through every problem
[Verse 2]
Family issues cutting deep
Memories don't let me sleep
Tears falling when nobody watching
'Cause pride too strong to speak
And I know people got problems too
But tonight I'm hurting bad
Trying not to lose my faith
Trying not to stay sad
[Chorus]
I got a heavy soul
Lord, this weight getting cold
I've been carrying problems nobody knows
Trying not to lose control
I got a heavy soul
But I still believe somehow
Even broken people heal
Even dark clouds clear out
[Verse 3]
I forgive people that damaged me
Still somehow they blaming me
Crazy how loyalty disappear
When life hit painfully
I gave love till I was empty
Still got treated like nothing
Now my trust move carefully
'Cause heartbreak change something
And honestly, I'm exhausted
Tired of pretending strength
Sometimes I wanna disappear
Just to breathe without stress
But I still hear God whisper
"You gon' make it through"
Even when depression talking louder
I hold on to the truth
[Bridge]
And every scar got a story
Every tear got a reason
Maybe pain don't come to destroy us
Maybe pain come for healing
[Chorus]
I got a heavy soul
Lord, this weight getting cold
I've been carrying problems nobody knows
Trying not to lose control
I got a heavy soul
But I still believe somehow
Even broken people heal
Even dark clouds clear out
[Outro]
Lord, hold my heart together
'Cause some nights I feel weak
And if I cry tonight
Please don't think less of me
Still got hope
Still got breath in me
I got a heavy soul
But I ain't giving up
Even when life get painful
I still believe in love
And one day all these tears
Gonna water something beautiful
Till then I keep surviving
With this heavy soul