Lyrics
[Verse 1]
I've been trying so long
Every time I give my heart it comes back wrong
I've been the woman who loves you through pain
Even when my own heart's drowning in rain
I still give, I still pour
Even when I'm empty they just take more
Showed my scars so a man could understand
He turned around and became that man
They say, don't tell a man what another man did
But how you heal what you still gotta live?
I got insecurities, I own that truth
Scars on my soul but I still choose you
Every time I believe it feels brand new
'Til déjà vu walks in the room
[Chorus]
I'm tired of trying to find someone to love me
With all that I am, all that's left of me
I keep giving my heart like it's free
But nobody loves like me
I'm tired of crying and calling it faith
Hoping next time it won't end the same
Maybe love just ain't meant for me
God, why I gotta hurt to be me?
[Verse 2]
Daddy left before I learned to breathe
Taught me heartbreak before I had teeth
The first man I loved showed me goodbye
Now every man after just made me cry
They touch my body but can't touch my soul
Say "I got you" then let me go
I built walls but I still leave doors
'Cause deep down I still want more
I tell my truth and they use it against me
Love turns cold when it's getting too heavy
Maybe I'm cursed, or maybe I'm tested
Either way my heart stay invested
Either way my heart stay invested
[Chorus]
I'm tired of trying to find someone to love me
With all that I am, all that's left of me
I keep giving my heart like it's free
But nobody loves like me
I'm tired of crying and calling it faith
Hoping next time it won't end the same
Maybe love just ain't meant for me
God, why I gotta hurt to be me?
[Bridge]
I still believe in forever
But forever keeps changing faces
I still dream of a love that stays
But I keep waking up in empty places
Maybe one day he'll find me whole
But right now I'm just saving my soul
[Chorus]
I'm tired of trying to find someone to love me
With all that I am, all that's left of me
I keep giving my heart like it's free
But nobody loves like me
I'm tired of crying and calling it faith
Hoping next time it won't end the same
Maybe love just ain't meant for me
[Outro]
But I'm still gon' love me
But I'm still gon' love me
I think I learned love wrong
'Cause the first man who was supposed to show me how...
Never did