My Epic - Beloved Lyrics
Lyrics
There are no nights now when I don't dream and wake in the darkness to find
I've been weeping.
But it has been ages since I've cried while awake, 'cause centuries wear on
The heart, they erode it away.
I'm still trying to record each word You spoke and if I finish I'll fill up
This earth.
But the memory of Your voice leaves me empty, 'cause I've been banished and
Boiled alive and yet I remain and they still call me by name, but they
Don't say it the same.
I watched all my brothers become martyrs and die one at a time, but I often
Wonder if waiting for You is the harder sacrifice.
I'm still trying to record each word You spoke and if I finish I'll fill up
This earth, but the memory of Your voice leave me empty.
I may be feeble and barely alive, but I've yet to forget a single word that
You said.
If my voice breaks down and all of my strength gives out and I'm just a
Shell left breathing my last days out.
Let it be known that time is a thief who surely steals everything, but in
My case it just cleared out the waste for me.
Nothing has dimmed; You have simply eclipsed all that stood in the way.
I'd give 20 more lifetimes; it would all be the same.
In the end, I know I'll find You will come once again.
You'll come call me by name.
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My Epic - Broken Voice - beloved
Meaning & Inspiration
My Epic's "Beloved," a deeply resonant track from their May 21, 2012 release *Broken Voice - Beloved*, embarks on a powerful narrative of enduring faith and persistent hope. The song immerses the listener in the perspective of a character who has witnessed centuries unfold, marked by suffering, loss, and a steadfast yearning for the divine. This profound journey is not merely a tale of individual struggle but an allegorical voice for the faithful throughout history, those who have walked through immense trials while awaiting the ultimate promise of redemption and reunion with their Creator.
The narrative unfolds with the speaker's admission of nightly weeping, a deep sorrow contrasted with the cessation of conscious tears, implying a weariness born from an unimaginably long wait. "Centuries wear on the heart, they erode it away," speaks to the immense toll of time on the human spirit, yet despite this erosion, the core mission remains: "I'm still trying to record each word You spoke and if I finish I'll fill up this earth." This commitment to preserving and proclaiming God's truth, even in isolation ("I've been banished"), echoes the tireless work of prophets, apostles, and countless believers dedicated to sharing the boundless wisdom of Scripture. The memory of God's voice, while cherished, also leaves a profound emptiness, a poignant reflection of our longing for direct, unhindered communion with the Divine, as expressed in Psalm 42:2, "My soul thirsts for God, for the living God; when shall I come and appear before God?"
A poignant turn in the song reveals a history of persecution and loss: "I watched all my brothers become martyrs and die one at a time." This line powerfully evokes the long history of Christian martyrdom, from the early church to contemporary times, where countless individuals have laid down their lives for their faith (Revelation 6:9-11). Yet, in the face of such profound sacrifice, the speaker poses a challenging question: "I often wonder if waiting for You is the harder sacrifice." This inquiry highlights the unique spiritual discipline of enduring patience and prolonged hope, a test of faith that can be as demanding as physical suffering. Despite feeling "feeble and barely alive," the speaker clings to every divine utterance, proclaiming, "I've yet to forget a single word that You said." This unwavering memory of God's promises in weakness finds a parallel in Paul’s declaration in 2 Corinthians 12:9-10, where God’s power is made perfect in human weakness.
The song reaches a climactic affirmation of faith, declaring that even if the physical body fails, the spirit remains resolute. "Let it be known that time is a thief who surely steals everything, but in my case it just cleared out the waste for me." This transformative perspective views time and suffering not as destroyers of faith, but as refiners, stripping away all that is superficial or distracting. Much like gold purified by fire (1 Peter 1:7), the long wait has served to intensify and clarify the speaker’s devotion, removing worldly attachments and focusing the heart entirely on God. "Nothing has dimmed; You have simply eclipsed all that stood in the way." This speaks to the supreme value of Christ, echoing Philippians 3:8, where Paul considers everything a loss compared to the surpassing worth of knowing Jesus. The ultimate certainty is declared: "In the end, I know I'll find You will come once again. You'll come call me by name." This resolute hope for Christ’s second coming and the promise of personal recognition and redemption (John 10:3, Revelation 22:20) serves as the song's anchoring truth, offering profound encouragement to all who navigate the long pilgrimage of faith, reminding us that our faithfulness, however imperfect, is seen and ultimately rewarded by our Beloved.