Micah Tyler - Even Then Lyrics

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I was sitting on the porch this morning, rubbing the stiffness out of my knuckles, listening to Micah Tyler sing about the "dead of night." It’s a young man’s voice, clear and sure, but the words hit a man like me—someone who has seen the paint peel off the walls and the faces change in the pews—with a different kind of weight.

There’s a line in there that sticks in my throat: “Even when the waters won’t stop rising.”

I’ve spent forty years trying to build levees. You work, you pray, you try to live right so the flood doesn’t reach your porch steps. But the older I get, the more I realize the water eventually finds its way in regardless of how hard you’ve paddled. It’s not a comforting thought, not really. It’s the truth that strips away the vanity of our own efforts. When you’re young, you think your faith is a wall you build to keep the bad out. By the time your hair is thin and your back aches, you realize faith isn’t the wall at all; it’s the quiet standing in the middle of the deluge.

Scripture talks about the man who built his house on the rock, but it doesn’t say the storm didn’t come. The wind blew, the rains fell, the floods rose. The house didn't stay dry; it just didn't wash away.

Then Tyler sings about being “caught in the dead of night.” That’s the hour when the mind plays tricks. It’s when the silence is so loud it rings, and every mistake you ever made—every word you should have kept to yourself, every time you turned away—comes back to sit at the foot of your bed.

It makes me think of the Psalmist in the 139th chapter, wondering if he could make his bed in Sheol and still find God there. It’s a frightening question, isn’t it? The suspicion that maybe, just maybe, you’ve finally wandered into a shadow so long and so cold that not even the Light can reach it.

The song doesn’t promise that the rising water stops. It doesn’t claim the night ends just because you’re tired of the dark. It just repeats the only thing worth holding onto when your grip is failing: “You’re with me even then.”

I don’t know if it’s a cure for the ache in my joints or the heavy thoughts that come after midnight. Some nights, the promise feels like a mountain; other nights, it feels like a thin reed. But as I look at these old hands, I know I’ve survived the rising water enough times to know the difference between the storm and the Ground. The water is real, the night is dark, and the struggle is always just around the corner. But the One who stays when the foundations shake? He’s the only thing that hasn't changed since I first cracked open a hymnal. Even when the lights go out, that’s enough to keep sitting on the porch.