Sixpence None the Richer - Don't Dream It's Over Lyrics

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Don’t Dream It’s Over Official Video Sixpence None The Richer

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I’ve been back a while now, but I still catch myself checking my pockets for money I don't have, or scanning the horizon for the creditors I left in the pig pen. Sixpence None the Richer did this cover back in 2002, and it hits me differently now than it did when I was still trying to scrub the stench of the trough off my skin.

The line that ruins me is: “Try to catch the deluge in a paper cup.”

I spent years doing exactly that. I thought I could manage the grace, contain it, quantify it, maybe even save a little bit for the next time I messed up. It’s pathetic, really. You’re standing in the middle of a literal flood—the kind that washes away the filth of the gutter—and you’re holding a flimsy, wet paper cup, hoping to scoop up just enough to justify your existence. But you can’t catch a deluge. It either drowns you or it carries you. I’m tired of trying to be the one in control of the tide.

Then there’s that other bit: “Now I’m walking again / To the beat of a drum / And I’m counting the steps to the door of your heart.”

There’s a weird kind of trauma in being found. You think you’re walking toward Him, but really, He’s the one who already closed the distance. It reminds me of the father in Luke 15—the one who didn't wait for the kid to get all the way home before he started running. I’m counting steps, anxious that if I miss a beat, I’ll end up back in the weeds. I’m still sweating, my shoes are falling apart, and the memory of the "war and waste" mentioned in the song is still playing on a loop in my head.

The world—that wall-builder—keeps whispering that I’m still the guy who sold his inheritance for garbage. It tells me to look at the TV page, to look at the mess, to believe that because I lost the battles, I’ve lost the war. But that’s the lie, isn't it? "They know they won't win."

I don't feel like a victor most days. I feel like a man with a hole in his roof, watching the rain pour in, sitting in the damp, wondering if I deserve the blanket he just threw over my shoulders. Sometimes I think the relief is harder to deal with than the hunger. You can understand hunger. Relief? That’s scandalous. It doesn’t make sense. I’m just walking, one heavy foot in front of the other, toward a door that wasn't supposed to be open for me anyway. I’m still terrified I’ll wake up and realize the paper cup finally disintegrated, but for now, I’m just breathing.