NF - Trauma Lyrics
Lyrics
Verse 1
Say you're there when I feel helpless
If that's true, why don't you help me?
It's my fault, I know I'm selfish
Stand alone, my soul is jealous
It wants love, but I reject it
Trade my joy for my protection
Chorus
Grab my hand, I'm drowning
I feel my heart pounding
Why haven't you found me yet?
I hold you so proudly
Traumas, they surround me
I wish you'd just love me back
Verse 2
Say you're here, but I don't feel it
Give me peace, but then you steal it
Watch them laugh at all my secrets
Scream and yell, but I feel speechless
Ask for help, you call it weakness
Lied and promised me my freedom
Chorus
Grab my hand, I'm drowning
I feel my heart pounding
Why haven't you found me yet?
I hold you so proudly
Traumas, they surround me
I wish you'd just love me back
Outro
Grab my hand, I'm drowning
I feel my heart pounding
Why haven't you found me yet?
Video
NF - Trauma (Audio)
Meaning & Inspiration
NF's "Trauma," released on July 26, 2019, delves into the raw, desperate cry of a soul wrestling with profound internal struggles and a yearning for rescue. The song's narrative is a stark exploration of the feeling of abandonment and betrayal, even from those who profess to be present. NF articulates a common human experience of internal conflict, where the desire for connection and healing is met with a deep-seated self-sabotage, trading genuine joy for the perceived safety of isolation. The lyrics paint a vivid picture of someone feeling overwhelmed, their heart racing with fear and a sense of being lost, reaching out for a hand to pull them from the depths of their emotional turmoil. The repeated plea, "Why haven't you found me yet?" and the wish to "just love me back" reveal a deep need for affirmation and a return of love that feels lost or withheld. This sentiment resonates with the spiritual struggle many face, feeling unseen or unheard by the divine in their darkest hours, mirroring the disciples' cry in the storm, "Master, do you not care that we are perishing?" (Mark 4:38). The song's core message powerfully echoes the human condition as described in Scripture, where sin and past wounds can create immense internal barriers, leaving individuals feeling isolated and drowning in their circumstances.
The persistent acknowledgment of self-blame, stating, "It's my fault, I know I'm selfish," and the rejection of love in favor of protection, speaks to the way our own imperfections can hinder our healing and relationship with God. This internal battle is reminiscent of Paul's lament in Romans 7:15: "For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing." The feeling of being trapped, where help is sought but interpreted as weakness, and promises of freedom are unmet, can lead to a profound sense of hopelessness. However, the persistent reaching for a hand, the acknowledgment of drowning, and the plea for love are also powerful indicators of an underlying hope for deliverance. This yearning for rescue, even in the face of overwhelming circumstances, mirrors the believer's constant turning toward God, trusting that He is a present help in times of trouble, as stated in Psalm 46:1: "God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble." The song, at its heart, is a testament to the enduring human spirit's quest for connection and solace, a struggle that Scripture validates and offers a pathway through by pointing to a God who promises to never leave or forsake His people (Hebrews 13:5).