Charity Gayle - New Name Written Down in Glory Lyrics

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My hands have grown thin over the years, the skin like parchment paper, map-lined with the history of chores and cradled babies and graveside dirt. On Sunday mornings, when the sanctuary lights dim and the young folks lift their hands, I sometimes find myself looking down at my knuckles, wondering if I still recognize the person they belong to.

Charity Gayle sings, "I am who I am because the I Am tells me who I am."

When you’re young, that line sounds like a declaration of war against your own insecurities. It sounds like something you pin to your wall to remind yourself you’re worth something. But when you’ve sat in the silence of a house that’s gone quiet—when the kids have moved on and the spouse has gone home to the Father—that line takes on a heavy, cooling weight. It stops being a slogan and starts being a lifeline. We spend half our lives trying to curate an identity, polishing up a version of ourselves for the world to witness. Then, one day, the world stops looking, and you’re left with just you and the One who whispers your name.

It reminds me of Exodus 3:14, that strange, terrifying moment in the desert where God gives Moses the only name that actually holds water. "I AM WHO I AM." If my identity is tethered to that name, then it doesn't matter much if my memory fails or my joints stiffen or my influence in the world shrinks to the size of a porch swing. The I Am doesn't change, even if the person He’s talking to is fraying at the edges.

There’s another line in her song that sticks in my throat: "I’ve met the author of my story."

I’ve had chapters in my life I would have gladly ripped right out of the binding. There were years of bitterness I’m ashamed to claim, and months of grief that felt like a permanent blackout. If I were the author, I would have edited those parts out for the sake of a better narrative. But the song says He is the author. That’s a hard pill to swallow on the nights when the pain is dull and constant, or when you look at the state of the world and feel a profound sense of exhaustion.

Does it bring me comfort? Yes. But it’s a comfort that demands surrender. It means the parts I thought were mistakes were actually brushstrokes in a design I was too short-sighted to see. I suppose that’s the work of these later years—realizing that being "mine" and belonging to Him is enough. Not because I’m strong, and not because I’ve got it all figured out, but because the Author has already penned the ending, and it doesn't look anything like the mess I would have made of it. I’m still learning to trust the plot, even when the ink looks a bit blurred.