Blanca - Even At My Worst Lyrics
Lyrics
If I'm being honest
I didn't think You'd stay with all my problems
I was so afraid that when You saw them
You would turn Your back on me and leave
Cause in the silence
My insecurities are like a siren
Taking over me and I can't hide them
Even then You see the best in me
That I can't see
Even at my worst You love me
You wrap Your arms around and You hold me close
Even at my worst You give
Something I don't deserve
You love me even at my worst
When I feel pressure
You reach out, You pull me back together
Who You are to me nothing can measure
If I have You, I have everything that I need
When I fall down
You pick me up
When I feel small
You're big enough
I'm standing strong
And it's because of You
Through my trouble
And my flaws
Yeah, You see above it all
I'm standing strong
And it's because of You
Even at my worst You love me
You wrap Your arms around and You hold me close
Even at my worst You give
Something I don't deserve
You love me even at my worst
Even at my worst You love me
And in Your eyes I'm always beautiful
Even at my worst You give
Something I don't deserve
You love me even at my worst
When I fall down
You pick me up
When I feel small
Lord, You're big enough
Through my trouble
And my flaws
My God, You see above it all
I'm standing strong
And it's because of You
Even at my worst You love me
You wrap Your arms around and You hold me close
Even at my worst You give
Something I don't deserve
Even at my worst You love me
And in Your eyes I'm always beautiful
Even at my worst You give
Something I don't deserve
You love me even at my worst
You love me even at my worst
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Blanca - Even At My Worst (Official Music Video)
Meaning & Inspiration
Blanca's "Even At My Worst," released as a single on April 23, 2021, delves into the profound realization of unconditional love, particularly in the context of faith. The song articulates a deeply personal struggle with insecurities and perceived flaws, the fear that these imperfections would cause a beloved figure to withdraw. Blanca lays bare a vulnerability, confessing the anxiety that her problems would be too much for someone to bear, leading to abandonment. This internal turmoil is likened to a siren’s call in moments of silence, a powerful metaphor for how self-doubt can overwhelm and obscure one's true worth. Yet, the core message of the song emerges from this honest confession: the unwavering, persistent love from a divine source that sees beyond these perceived failings. This love isn't conditional on a perfect facade; rather, it embraces the entirety of who she is, even in her most imperfect moments.
The lyrical narrative powerfully echoes scriptural truths about God's steadfast love. The feeling of being seen and cherished even when struggling with one's worst self directly aligns with God's perspective on His children. Consider Romans 5:8, which states, "But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us." This verse highlights that God's love was extended not when humanity was at its best, but in its most fallen state. Blanca's acknowledgment that she receives "Something I don't deserve" resonates with the concept of grace, as articulated in Ephesians 2:8-9: "For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—not by works, so that no one can boast." The song's emphasis on being picked up when falling and feeling small, yet being met by a "big enough" presence, directly reflects passages like Psalm 34:18, "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit," and Isaiah 41:10, which promises, "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." The final lines, where Blanca asserts that in the eyes of this divine lover she is "always beautiful," powerfully conveys the transformative nature of God's gaze, which sees not our outward appearance or our struggles, but our inherent worth as His creation, as described in 1 Samuel 16:7: "But the Lord said to Samuel, 'Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.'" Through "Even At My Worst," Blanca offers a stirring testament to the liberating power of experiencing a love that is truly, profoundly, and eternally unchanging, a love that uplifts and sustains regardless of our human failings.