Sons Of Sunday - I Looked Up Lyrics

I remember that long cold night
How dark it was
Heart broke blinds closed
Didn’t even wanna see the sun

Like a refugee with nowhere to run
Lies in my mind held me hostage like a loaded gun
Tellin me I had no one

God I was too prideful to pick up that phone
Three a.m. I knew I needed help
But man I didn’t want anyone else to know
I was losing it

Somewhere between the deepest hell
And lowest low
I heard a voice from overhead
Sayin’ “son, don’t you dare let go”

I looked up
I looked up
From the bottom and I saw You
It was all You
I looked up
I looked up
From the bottom and I saw You
It was all You

I was at my lowest that night on August sixth
Trying to wrestle with all the pain and hell
I was dealing with
Punching holes, throwing blows, pitching fits
Trying not to drown

Wasn’t feeling like I was good enough
Knew I just couldn’t ever keep this up
Started sinking underneath from all this endless over-thinking

How could I forget, I can’t forget spending forty days in the wilderness
Feeling like I messed up too bad
So bad I’d never get out of it
Ain’t it funny how heaven comes in the least expected ways
My roommate in rehab looked over at me
Said it’s gonna be okay then

Sunday morning I just kept
Circling the Church
My heart was beating out of my chest
Couldn’t make a sound or even say a word

Tried to pick up my phone
Call my wife and tell her how I feel
But my hands were heavy as two stones
Ten and two, stuck on the steering wheel

How do you worship when your soul ain’t got a song to sing
It’s hard to remember when your heart forgets the melody, Jesus
When all I had was Your name on my lips
That’s when I sent an SOS to heaven
And heaven broke in to come and rescue me

Sometimes I gotta look back at the man I was
To remember just how far You brought me, how far I’ve come, all those little victories won
I’m so glad You always see the best in me
You always knew the man that I could be
From the moment I got down on my knees