Hillsong - Healer Lyrics

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There’s a specific kind of arrogance in thinking you can outrun a storm. I spent years trying to prove I was the exception to every rule, burning bridges like they were scrap wood just to keep myself warm in the dark. By the time I finally collapsed, I wasn't looking for a "worship experience." I was looking for a medic.

When I hear Mike Guglielmucci sing, “You walk with me through fire,” it doesn't sound like a radio hook to me. It sounds like a frantic, desperate prayer hissed through grit-clenched teeth. When you’ve actually been in the fire—the kind that blisters your pride and leaves your reputation as nothing but ash—you don't sing about it because it’s poetic. You sing about it because you’re terrified that if you let go of the hem of His garment, you’ll be incinerated.

People talk about God walking with us like it’s a stroll through a park. They haven't been where I’ve been. In the furnace, there is no air, only the heavy, suffocating scent of burning debris. But that line? That’s where the scandal starts. He didn’t wait for me to wash the soot off my face. He didn’t demand I fix my resume or explain why I was playing with matches in the first place. He just walked into the blaze. It’s the Daniel 3:25 reality—the fourth man in the fire isn't there to lecture you on fire safety; He’s there to make sure you don't burn.

Then there’s the line, “You’re my portion.” That one hits different when you’ve spent your life chasing everything else. I spent years gorging on garbage, thinking I was feeding a hunger that could never be satisfied, only to realize I was just making myself sick. To say He is my portion is to admit that I am finally done fighting for the leftovers.

It’s hard to reconcile this with the mess I still carry. My hands are still shaking, and I can’t always track where the grace ends and my own stubbornness begins. I look at the wreckage of my past—the debt, the broken trust, the time I can’t get back—and I wonder if "healing" is even the right word for what I need. Maybe it’s an amputation of the old self.

I’m not "fixed." I’m not standing on a stage with my hands raised in perfect alignment. I’m just standing. Sometimes that has to be enough. If He truly holds my world in His hands, then He’s holding a whole lot of broken pottery. It’s a strange, terrifying thought—that the God who calmed the seas would bother with the turbulence inside my own head. But I’m finding that the rescue is rarely about the storm stopping. It’s about realizing I’m not alone in the wreckage. That’s the only thing that keeps me from walking back into the fire tonight.