Getty Music - I Am Not My Own Lyrics

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I Am Not My Own (Official Lyric Video) - Keith & Kristyn Getty, Skye Peterson

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The Getty music folks, they usually stay pretty buttoned-up, don't they? Neat rhymes, steady rhythm, choir-room ready. I listened to this, and for a second, I thought I was back in a pew I didn't want to be in. But then it hit that line: "My body is a temple of the Living God / I'll worship in this house that His blood has bought."

I look at these hands—stained, shaking a bit, carrying the weight of a thousand bad decisions—and I don't see a temple. I see a ruin. I see the place where I burned down my own foundation, slept in the dirt, and tried to trade my dignity for a handful of husks. Most of the time, when I hear people talk about being "temples," it feels like they’re trying to sell me a coat of white paint for a shack that’s falling into the sinkhole.

But then there's the part about the blood. That’s where the grit is. That’s the only reason a ruin like me gets to be called a house for anything holy. It’s not that I scrubbed myself clean to host the Almighty; it’s that He bought the property after I’d already gutted it.

It’s messy, you know? The idea that "He declares my standing, and He declares my state." I’ve spent years declaring my own state—usually something like "worthless" or "unfixable"—and I was wrong every single time. 1 Corinthians 6:19-20 says we’re bought with a price, and my gut reaction used to be shame. You bought this? Why? Look at the cracks. But the longer I sit here, smelling like the gutter I just crawled out of, the more I realize that my own assessment of my "standing" doesn't mean a damn thing. He’s the one holding the title deed. He’s the one who looked at the wreckage and decided it was worth the price of His life.

"There is nothing broken that You cannot repair."

That feels like a dare. It feels like an accusation against my cynicism. I’ve spent so much time holding onto the broken bits of my life, treating them like private property, like my sins were the only things I actually owned. And now I’m supposed to let Him have the keys? To a heart that’s still leaking smoke?

It’s terrifying. It’s the kind of freedom that makes you want to run back to the familiar darkness because it’s easier to be owned by your own failures than to be claimed by something this absolute. I’m not sure I’m ready to be a "masterpiece" yet. Honestly, I’m just trying to figure out how to stop profaning the space He’s moving back into. Maybe the repair starts with just letting Him stay in the mess, without me trying to sweep the dust under the rug before He walks in. I’m still here, still messy, but I guess I’m His problem now. And for the first time, that feels like enough.